Preparing my heart…

While preparing my heart to work full time in my church, one question sparked up although I have peace and “on fire” to work directly/fully for God’s kingdom. The realistical question is the pay. Haha… I am challenged on this issue for a few times since the day I have submitted myself for God’s kingdom. In Chinese churches, the pay is low. Can I survive with the low pay? Am I able to have financial independant? Am I able to provide my future family with basic needs? Wow… worry… God’s answer to me is… look at the birds! They do not keep “tomorrow” food, but they still can survive.  I believe God is taking care of me and His blessing is abundantly for me. Some more, this article (http://necflc.blogspot.com/2009/01/how-much-do-we-pay-our-pastors.html) has encouraged me. I will not be poor but I will be rich in God’s kingdom. God won’t want His servant to have a poor life, that could not glorify His name. And His heart to me is FOCUS on His kingdom, do not worry of the needs of life.

Second challenge is…. will I be “katak di bawah tempurung” by serving in my home church? Will I be limited for more exposure and updates from other place of the earth? I hope I can still update myself and expose myself to other ministries/church movements while serving in my comfortable home church. Well, I will never know the real situation until I step in it. May be there is a lot of challenges ahead of me. Serving relationship challenge? Work environment challenge? I am a hypercritical person. Am I able to cope with “cing cai” in Chinese culture and non-systematic environment? The answer is… I don’t know until I go into it. haha…

So, be prepared for the new chapter of my life on this coming Thursday. Please pray for me to have anointment and wisdom from the Holy Spirit. God bless me.

B07的屋檐

今早，回到了母校的BB House。
从开门到里面，脑海里有着过去的回忆、过去的声音。
回想起从前的BB House，只有破烂且残旧的桌椅，没有电源，也好像没有水源。
屋前的空地是我们修剪野草的地方。
屋前也是我们喜欢在Recruitment Day和AGM过后拍照的地方。
屋前也是我们在下午时间开会的地方。

屋里有时是我们开会的地方。
是我们喜欢用来辅导队员、领袖的地方。
是我们换衣的地方。
是我们偷偷收电话的地方。
是我们放书包的地方。
是我们用来面试的地方。

在这屋檐下，从无到有，有了水电、有了比较好的椅子。
更重要的是，在这里我们找到了年少的回忆，一起耐着下午的炎热，在这儿聚集，一起在在这儿做决定。
甚至，我也是第一次在这里被脱裤子（男校的玩意），就只有一次被脱成功。哈哈！

这屋檐见证了许许多多的我们。
从中一那一年开始，我们都成了Blue-Blooded。
就因为蓝蓝的制服，为我们的生命染上了色彩。
有暗淡的痛苦，
有亮丽的欢笑。

这屋檐成为了我们的藏身之处，
让我们在这里感受到上帝的爱。
然后，再回到家中去成为一个不一样的见证。

这里很热，同样的，
我们内心的火热也还未熄灭，
因为我们还要延续我们的Object。。。
…the advancement of Christ’s Kingdom among Boys and the promotion of habits of obedience, reverence, discipline, self-respect and all that tend towards a true Christian manliness.

Most Powerful One

Lord, thank you for saving me.
Lord, thank you for Your wonderful blessing.
Lord, thank you for Your unselfishness love.
Lord, thank you for Your sacrifice.

Because of You, I am not living by my own, but by You.
Because of Your love, we are here… we want to magnify Your name. We want to be ready for Your kingdom.
Lord, build up my faith. There is always hope in You. You are the ONLY most powerful one. Thank you…

信心的道路

23/6, 晚上九时左右，我带着平常心走进了牧师的办公室。我们约好这个时候要谈谈我在教会全职侍奉的事。我分享了神给我的感动、呼召。牧师也问了我一些问题，我答了。。。

我曾经向神要求五年的时间。其实，为何我要五年的时间呢？原因很简单，其实我没有信心。。。我担心经济的问题。我希望在五年里能够有比较稳定的经济状况。上帝，对不起，我没有做出合乎你心意的祷告。上帝，对不起，我一直要依靠自己，没有依靠你。对不起。。。我曾经与一些弟兄姐妹分享了神对我的呼召，他们都给我很大的鼓励，但是我还是需要突破我的忧虑。上帝啊！求你指教我走这信心的道路。上帝，我一定要仰望你，只有你。。。

My desire for You, Lord…

Lord, I am not fulfilled… fill me , please… I am thirst for You… only You can satisfy me, Lord. I am “hungry” for sometimes, I need You… ONLY You…When I face the challenge, I always easily fall down emotionally. But, that’s not Your teaching. You want me to be strong and firm in You and Your words – to see hope. But… why? I still fail although I look upon You? What’s wrong with me? Holy Spirit, reveal to me. It is the struggle that everyone will go through, especially those who want to go into full time ministry? Lord, You want a holy vessel, are you cleansing me? Lord.. what’s Your plan? What’s Your purpose in me? My heart is for YOU… Shall I go into the full time ministry now? Or, can I ask for another 5 years? This is Your calling or my desire? Well, I am truly clear this is Your call… But…How should I walk by faith in You?

Lord, what is the next step I shall take? Lord, can You give me wisdom in handling current issues? My relationship… my family… my serving… Lord, these are the blessing from You. Blessing for me to grow deeper in You, to worship You, to serve You… Lord, You know my heart. God, I only have one desire – that’s YOU… You are my strength when I am weak. Thank you for Your wonderful love, I will walk by faith in You.

I am back…

After 2 weeks, I am back here… hooray~~ Well, last 2 weeks… attended 2 camps and 1 one-day mission trip.

1st event: ARTC/STU
I was one of the trainer in STU… this was a wonderful training because God IS in control. I would say this was a really life impacting training, because a lot of the NCOs were challenged physically, emotionally and mentally. May they experience God in their participation in The Boys’ Brigade in the coming 1 year. God, save them!

2nd event: Officers’ Retreat
the most relaxing camp in EPCOM… throughout the 3 days 2 nights, we had wonderful fellowship. We even had very CLEAR/OPEN/DIRECT heart to heart sharing. One of the breakthrough in this retreat was that most of the officers learn to share God’s words… Since few years back, we were trying to have more emphasis in feeding spiritual needs in the ministry. At least, I saw some spark from this retreat. Praise the Lord. May God use us to expand His kingdom.

3rd event: one-day visitation to the native area
another brother and I had traveled for about 3 hours to visit the natives. This is my first time to see them, and they really looks like the natives in Africa, which we watched from the TV. One “kampung” has about 100+ people, barefoot, some do not have clothes… So, our church is having old clothes collection for them… pls contribute!

After the above camps and trip, I started to work in Union Primary as a teacher for 3 weeks… so, now still left about 2 weeks. Now, I finally knew the hardship of a teacher… I am teaching std. 1-3, the hardest students to be handled is std. 1….I thought it will be easy to handle std. 1 student, but IT IS NOT AT ALL.  oh no… God, please give me wisdom.

~~ok… gtg to prepare for school~~ looking forward for someone’s returning and PSC Drill Comp. tomorrow….

过后。。。

oh no。。。考试才过一个星期，我又感觉，我要“发霉”了。。。一个星期内，我到底做了什么呢？
看了两部戏。。。night at the museum & angels & demons… 不爱看戏，没评语，纯粹享受戏院的设备。。哈哈！其实，angels & demons的猜谜过程还蛮精彩，如果能用在营会当中，那是最好不过了。
教补习。。。去教会。。。
好好地睡足七、八个小时。。。补回考试前的睡眠。。。不对，不应该说补回，因为过去的健康是补不回的，应该说我正重新调整生活。。。
不断地思考。。。what’s next？只有上帝知道，那最好的方法就是多花时间寻求神。。。

上帝，what’s next？我只能凭信心依靠你，你也是我唯一的依靠。

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美好团契

昨天的比赛成绩非常出人意外，因为我们没有垫底。。。哈哈！而且，表现还很不错。。。谢谢组员的合作。

昨晚的重点不在于比赛，而是弟兄姐妹之间的团契时光，那时光太美好了。我们男女老少一起敬拜，一起大呼小叫。。。uncle aunty们的牺牲最大，因为他们需要克服科技的障碍和我们一起回答出现在电脑荧幕里的问题。谢谢你们的忍耐。。。我相信透过这比赛，弟兄姐妹更加地渴慕神，会更加努力读圣经。加油！加油！

good morning！

早晨是一天当中最美好的时刻。。。今天更是心情特别好，因为今晚将会有教会所举办的圣经常识比赛。这一次的比赛报名踊跃，有十组参加，盼望我们能在这比赛当中有美好的团契。虽然星期二有考试，但我也报名了。哈哈！放松一下嘛。。。我们这一组的势力有待进步，所以我们的目标：不要垫底。。。哈哈！

Tell me why?

Hi guys, I found this song from this website…http://www.1324worldmag.blogspot.com/

Please read the lyrics carefully. Enjoy it…

In my dream children sing a song of love for every boy and girl
The sky is blue and fields are green and laughter is the language of the world
Then I wake and all I see is a world full of people in need

Everyday I ask myself what will I have to do to be a man?
Do I have to stand and fight to prove to everybody who I am?
Is that what my life is for to waste in a world full of war?

(children) tell me why? (declan) tell me why?
(children) tell me why? (declan) tell me why?
(together) just tell me why, why, why?

Tell me why (why,why,does the tiger run)
Tell me why (why why do we shoot the gun)
Tell me why (why,why do we never learn)
Can someone tell us why we let the forest burn?

(why,why do we say we care)
Tell me why (why,why do we stand and stare)
Tell me why (why,why do the dolphins cry)
Can some one tell us why we let the ocean die ?

(why,why if we’re all the same)
Tell me why (why,why do we pass the blame)
Tell me why (why,why does it never end)
Can some one tell us why we cannot just be friends?

Chorus:
Tell me why (why) does it have to be like this?
Tell me why (why) is there something I have missed?
Tell me why (why) cos I don’t understand.
When so many need somebody
we don’t give a helping hand.
Tell me why?

Why? Because you are still here. Come out from your comfort zone!
Love the people, save the world.

Matthew

4:17

From that time on Jesus began to preach, “repent, for the kingdom of heaven is near.”

Basketball + Gymnastic + American Football = Slamball

Have you tried to play basketball by hopping around the court?

Have you seen people performing gymnastic by carrying a ball?

Have you tried pushing each others without getting hurt?

But, it is quite aggressive and violence…

However, it looks safe…let’s hope for Slamball in Malaysia…

想起了远方的你们

今天，我一整天都在温习功课，但是进展超慢，脑袋似乎阻塞了。躺在床上，看着白白的灯光。我想起了他们。

想起了在LJ的青少年人。。。
第一次见到你们，看到你们害羞害羞的样子，有点不知所措。因着环境的差异，和你们谈话时，似乎不太顺畅。虽然，我们只见面短短几个小时，但是似乎很怀念他们。还有二十多天，或许更少天，你们就要面对高考了。每当收到这一位男生的电邮，心里很感动，因为你们想念我们，因为你们还记得我们，因为我们认识了，搭起了桥梁。
但愿上帝祝福你们，让你们能够继续深造。

想起了在MY的小孩。。。
第一次见到他们，天气好冷。那时我哭了，但并不是因为我怕冷。而是，我看到了你们的需要，看到了你们的缺乏，看到了我们的幸福。在冷天时，虽然你们的外表脏兮兮，但是你们的笑容依然天真，美丽、纯洁，温暖了在颤抖着的我。那时，我看到你们在玩弹球。你们知道吗？那时，是哥哥第一次看到这玩意。。。
你们还好吗？每一个星期，还是走一个小时、两个小时、三个小时或更久的路程回家吗？路上还平安吗？家里的爷爷奶奶还好吗？你们的功课还好吗？

我很想回到你们那里，或许后年。。。想念你们。。。

The church…

1. It’s about the giving, not the receiving.
2. It’s all about relationship-building.
3. We must learn to live with others’ differences and unify around our common commitments.
4. God is the audience, not us
5. Worship creates opportunities for connections with God.
6. We need others who can share our load.
7. The church offers powerful mentors.
8. People at church have gifts you need.
9. Our impact is multiplied when we’re part of a church community.
10. Our commitments define us.

Please read full article from http://www.youthministry.com/?q=node/5250

Here in My Home

today, I accidently found this video in youtube. It is a nice song, made by Malaysian. I love the part, where they rapped in 4 languages. It draws the picture in heaven, where every tougues and evry tribes will worship the Lord there with one love undivided… Wah, great! Enjoy it!

说了。。。

我是很直率的人。。。有话该说的，一定会说；不该说的，有时会不小心说了（所以，常常得罪人）。。。哈哈！（好笑吗？）终于，在两天之内，我把闷在心里几个星期的两件事都说了，感谢神！继续祷告，仰望神，不靠自己，要仰赖神。

还有十天，两科的考试。。。过后，就可以飞咯！哈哈！即将乘坐God‘s Airlines到God’s destination。。。加油！加油！

但是，看到桌上堆积如山的书后，“油”都泄了，因为嘴巴开开，睡着了。。。哈哈！

晴天

在生命当中，很多时候，人在失去了才懂得珍惜，没有了才懂得去寻回，后来，才伤心绝望，但是事情已到了不能转弯的地步。
或许这样，我不允许自己犯下任何的错误，以免内疚。。。但是，我所做的决定对吗？
我不知，我只有对事对人完全地委身、付出，那我才会知道，那至少我尽力了我应当做的本分，好过事后才出现“早知XXXX，如果XXXX。。。”等等的假设性问题。。。

模糊不清。。。期盼拨开云雾见晴天的这一天。。。

Looking for a job

hi friends, I am looking for a job in these 3 sectors – government sector, para-government sector (like POS
, PBA, TNB, etc…) and Islamic banking, that is based in Penang. So, if you have any “kang tao”, please let me know. Thank you!

ThePlan09

After reading its website, I really hope to go for this camp, because I was attracted by the workshop topics. But too bad, on the same dates, there will be Family Camp and Vision Camp. Still considering which camp to go…

奉献

刚刚从电视上，听到由苏芮1988年演绎的《奉献》。在youtube找不到合适的movie。想听的人就自己上网找吧！

長路奉獻給遠方，玫瑰奉獻給愛情，我拿什麼奉獻給你，我的愛人
白雲奉獻給草場，江河奉獻給海洋，我拿什麼奉獻給你，我的朋友
我拿什麼奉獻給你，我不停的問，我不停的找，不停的想，啊. . . . . . . . .
白鴿奉獻給藍天，星光奉獻給長夜，我拿什麼奉獻給你，我的小孩
雨季奉獻給大地，歲月奉獻給季節，我拿什麼奉獻給你，我的爹娘

我的上帝，我拿什么奉献给你，我不停的問，我不停的找，不停的想，求你指示我。